I Regret He didn’t die in My arms - Celine Dion

Celine Dion says she’s forcing herself to move on even though regret weighs heavy on her heart since the death of her husband. In her first interview since René Angélil’s death four months ago, the French-Candadian superstar opened up on the loss of her husband of 21 years and the ending she wished the two could have shared. “He wanted to die in my arms, I cannot live with a regret but this I do,” she told ABC News’ Deborah Roberts during Wednesday night’s “Nightline.” Celine Dion returns to Las Vegas show after husband's death.

The 48-year-old said she’s fighting to let go of the pain she suffers from not fulfilling Angelil’s wish to die wrapped in her arms. “If I hold on to this, I wont move on. I have to give myself a reason to move on,” she explained. Hiding back tears, Celine Dion opened up on her husband's death.Hiding back tears, Celine Dion opened up on her husband's death. (ABC NEWS) The 73-year-old manager, who launched Dion’s superstar career, died Jan. 14 after a long battle with throat cancer .

Celine Dion's husband, Rene Angelil, dies of cancer at 73 It’s a tragedy which was followed two days later by the death of Dion’s brother, Daniel, who lost his battle to the same disease — on a date that happened to be her husband’s birthday.

The “That’s the Way It Is” singer, who held back tears, acknowledged she’s in for a “long road” ahead but noted watching the father of her children suffer was harder.

Angélil left behind three kids with Dion — Rene-Charles,15, and twin five-year-old sons Eddy and Nelson — as well as three adult children from a previous relationship.

“Up is a good thing,” she said. “Up is uplifting.” The emotional interview was filmed in February, when Dion returned to her Las Vegas residency and delived an emotional tribute to her husband.

The award-winning crooner is expected to take the stage at Sunday’s Billboard Music Awards, where she’ll also cover “The Show Must Go On” by Queen and will receive the Icon award.